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[jmtooktheplanet]

Guilt wasn’t something she was comfortable with. She’d done a lot of damage to Leonard over the years, all premeditated to some degree with consequences already taken into consideration. It had just never been anything like this and somehow that was worse. Jocelyn supposed that conscience came with age in this case or that maybe she’d grown as a person. None of that really seemed to matter now, not once it was already done and she had no idea how to actually fix the situation. Jim hated her with good reason. That was an undeniable fact after she’d caught the look on his face once he’d fled her rooms.

And then there was Leonard’s confusion over the situation. She should have realized, she’d just been too busy caught in pleasant memories and nostalgia of how things had been once to catch on to just how wrong everything was. How wrong he was. It was complicated, so very, very complicated. There was no fixing this. There was nothing she could do to take it away or make it less detrimental to any of the involved parties. She could, however, attempt to make amends for her role in it. Humbling herself with an apology that would no doubt be ill received wasn’t much but it was a start. The rest would come to her.

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[jmtooktheplanet.livejournal.com]

"I was going to suggest I fill the role we already know I'm good at. He doesn't need me, and this will eventually wear off. You'll be the one to put him back together now and hopefully it will minimize the damage when things are back to normal." It seemed like the best solution to her. It might hurt him temporarily, but in the long run it would be for the best.

[captainjimk.livejournal.com]

"The problem with that is that he does need you right now," Jim sighed, scrubbing a hand over the stubble that had grown in the absence of him finding the need to take beard suppressors, "And you leaving will break him to the point that I'm not sure even I can put him back together again,"

[jmtooktheplanet.livejournal.com]

"So we're just supposed to continue avoiding one another in this mockery of affection until he comes to his senses? How does that make it any better? How is it any different? My physical presence here and my obvious avoidance is still going to come across as rejection." She was beyond frustrated and trying to do the right thing by her ex-husband, and even Jim, for once. It should have been easy and it was shaping up to be anything but.